Semiotic's Girlfriend

I couldn't determine the location, the setting was even more unclear.
The only thing that was significant - my laptop.
It almost seems like my home-office setting, but not quite.
Something was different, I didn't know what.

Then I saw the MSN Messenger message screen. Loads and loads of words but the words were so small (something like size 6 font size). Sender of message.... How? What? Huh? We have not been in contact since we broke up.... that's 2 years and over 8 months ago on my birthday. Impossible. I don't even have his name on my MSN. I don't even know if he has MSN - I'm sure he does but whatever.

So I squinted my eyes and I was determined to read the message.

".... I feel bad and guilty...."

Right.... Can't make out the rest....

But something caught my attention..... SEMIOTIC'S GIRLFRIEND.

"Tell Chooeypoo..... (can't make out this bit) .... now that we are together you should tell her.... "

I tried to read on but I was suddenly stirred awake by this immense heat I felt. Not on-heat sort of heat! But HOT sort of heat. Heat? In the early hours of a winter morning? I had no idea what was happening. I tried to force myself back to sleep and in my semi-conscious stupour, I was determined to finish this dream.

But this is how dream works. Once it's been disturbed, you do not really "get back into a dream". It becomes more of a mind thing. Your mind will go on last-memory mode and freezes at the last image saved. The image freezes like a computer hung and to no avail will your desperate pleas to your brain, 'Please continue the dream... please please please....' actually work. The dreams stop there.

So I gave up and woke up at 0921 hours. I looked out of the window and realised how gloomy the weather was. Grey sky. Gloomy gloomy. So how did I ever manage to get woken up by heat? I have no idea. And waking up with the dream hovering around my mind was not exactly the perfect way to start a Saturday morning. I was disturbed. Very disturbed. I'm not much of a dreamer AND I am not exactly someone who sits behind her computer every other day and wallow in self pity over her ex-boyfriends. So to have such a bizarre dream was unsettling. Terribly unsettling.

Semiotic's Girlfriend.

Semiotic was part of the publication he wrote for his PHD during the time we were together.

Semiotic : a general philosophical theory of signs and symbols that deals especially with their function in both artificially constructed and natural languages and comprises syntactics, semantics, and pragmatics (Merriam-Webster Online Dictionary).

I wasn't highly concern over WHO Semiotic's Girlfriend is. It is coming 3 years on my birthday this year so like would I give 2 hoots whether he as a girlfriend or married for that matter? I think not! He can have a harem of wives right now for all I care! I was more intrigued by the significance of this dream, this term - Semiotic's Girlfriend. I must say, has a flippin' nice ring to it as well. Ha!

So I did an Internet search.

Can't find anything.

A whole lot of returns on Semiotics.... girlfriend....

But zero on Semiotic's Girlfriend.

I gave up after about an hour of search. I was not getting anywhere with this. Didn't help either that I completely bombed it at the driving range today. So much for thoughts diversion. The dream is still playing over and over again in my mind..... BIG FONTS : Semiotic's Girlfriend.... A whole lot of garbled size 6 fonts words, his image and me telling him, "It is okay. You don't have to explain anything (and really, I don't care)."

So I keep pondering over this dream.
Even as I'm making coffee.
Frustrated.
What the heck does it mean?
And why him?
Why now?
Semiotic's Girlfriend?

Then I decided.

Introducing to you my latest Girlfriend......


Name : Semiotic's Girlfriend
Make : Figure Form
Code : Ladies Standard 100FF
Size : 34/10 (Bust 87cm / Waist 66cm / Hip 92cm)
Feature : Collapsible Shoulders
Ownership Date : 08 June 2005
Cost : ZAR 2861.40 (= +- SIN$710)


If ANYONE wants to offer their help in interpreting this weird dream. Please do feel free to leave your comments. But here's a couple of obvious facts :

• I do not miss that dude AT ALL.
• I do not think of him AT ALL - till now of course.
• I do not care even if he does have a girlfriend.
• And how does he look like again?

All I want to know is - WHAT THE HECK DOES SEMIOTIC'S GIRLFRIEND MEAN?

Ok.... I finally own Semiotic's Girlfriend after 5 years of contemplation.
There's only one tad bit of problem now though....
I still have not bought my sewing machine(s)!

And then reality hit.
I look at my pathetic deficit bank balance.
Oh boy... I'm in so much trouble.
Doesn't help that I've OFFICIALLY RESIGNED.
Yes! Yes!
Like FINALLY!
Last day of work on the 31st of August.
Yay!

Don't even bother to ask what's my plan from here.
NO IDEA.
No no.... Chooey never plans.
Just take it as it comes.
Blah blah blah.....
I'll live.